personally, laura8, i think you're extremely brave.

you're aware of all the anxieties you have at the airport, and you know it's going to be difficult for you.. but you're trying it.

go you!

would it perhaps help if you took something like an I pod to the airport?. while you're walking around the crowded terminal, you can listen to music to drown out the crowds

and as for waiting in line, could you perhaps get their really early?. as soon as check in opens?. that way you'll have less of a wait time- if you arive at the desk before it opens that should be good.

only giving suggestions..