I'm so, so sorry you are going through this, Starry Night. You have had the worst breaks, and you really don't deserve that. From everything I've seen of you on here, you are a kind, smart, sweet and generous person. I know you were a great teacher who really cared about your students. I hope you will get back with T very soon and get the support and help you need to get back on your feet. You have been there, you can get back there.