I must admit I am in defensive mode right now regarding my own religion ( WTS JW) if you know what any of that means. How we are treated within a spiritual community does have an impact on our emotional, mental well being even just the dynamics create lasting perceptions for good and bad. Please do research read investigate, make a very very "critical examination" of your beliefs find out if they are based on honest truthful premise. Those answers I have found are both devastating and liberating...painful.