Hi there,
I posted here a few weeks back but can't find my post - I've also moved house so don't have regular internet access!

Im a female dating another female who has bi polar. We've been seeing each other for just over a month, so not long at all. She has told me on and off over the last month, that she is not feeling that well and at one point in the last few weeks, took a week off of taking meds (she takes 5 different meds). We have had some really nice times, and some other slightly odd times - a real mixture. We had an opportunity to spend some nice time together this weekend, and she told me she was really looking forward to it - me too. However, it took a turn for the worse and within a matter of hours she told me she wanted to be alone. I mistakenly phoned her and asked her if i could stay at hers, thinking this would show her that I care and that I don't want to run a mile because of the bi-polar (which she said most people have previously). But I was wrong - she reacted really badly to this, saying she told me she wanted time alone and that I hadn't honoured that. She has now gone home to see her parents (about 4hours away). I talked on the phone to her, apologise for whatever I had done to upset her and told her that I cared and that I was there if she wanted to call me. She was angry, blunt, distant and very cold. I then got a voice message telling me she was ill, and getting more and more ill - and that she can't deal with the emotion of seeing me. She said it tips her over, every time she enters into a relationship. Ultimately she told me she no longer wants to be with me. This has been in the last 48hrs. Its gone from really nice, to really awful.

Please help me to understand. I desperately want to contact her, but am too scared Im doing everything wrong.

Im trying to 'stand still' as opposed to running forward trying to remedy what I know can't be remedied, and not to withdraw. Im doing nothing and its killing me.

Ive never experienced her being this angry. I know she has gone through a manic stage in the last 2 weeks. Is it 'normal' that someone with bi polar would dip like this after? She started taking her meds again a week ago. She shouted at the doctor and got told not to go back again?? Would this be the effects of not taking meds? of taking them again?
I just want to understand - i like her so much.
Thanks all