Being perfect. ..wouldn't life be soo much simpler if I had neat handwriting? If I wasn't shy? If I always looked pretty? If I could sing? If I always had straight A's? If I was always in a good mood? If I wasn't bipolar..?
I try SO HARD to be perfect.. for my family, for my friends, for my boyfriend, .. for myself.. But I just can't do it.. the harder I try the farther away I get.. does anyone else struggle with this?
I get in moods where EVERYTHING has to perfect. My room has to be spotless, all my work needs to be done, the rest of the house has to been clean, I have to look good, my drawings have to be 100%, my handwriting has to be perfect(which btw never happens..), etc. & then if one thing goes wrong, I get SO overwhelmed and then I just break down, start crying and give up on everything..