My heart is breaking for you and I'm sending you big hugs. I recall my mother calling me every day during my first depression to ask how much I slept the night before..for a few weeks it was two hours and then I just didn't sleep and wasn't sure if I did or not...it was awful. I quit my job over the phone as an office manager because I was so out of it from lack of sleep. How you are able to function at work-oh wow...you're better than I was. I would try to get time off from work so you can go to the hospital...I had nothing to return to do I think that made it a little harder when out. Many hugs to you.