Maybe you should look into a small college to start off in. Some colleges offer counseling free for the whole semester and you don't have to pay for any of their services. Another thing is that they have to stay open when office hours are open so if you just drop by down by their office someone will be there for you to talk to. If they are busy they will make an appointment for you to go see them. All I can sugest for now is just try it out for the first 8 times and if it helps then maybe it would be worth paying for the other sessions. But like I said you might want to look into a different college and find one that will have these services for free. You might feel better by doing that, just knowing that the service is there for you to use at any time you need it. Some colleges will even get the counselors up in the middle of the night if you are really needing to talk. Just a suggestion for you! I hope that things get better for you soon.