Perfection is based on perception. Like when you find the perfect man, he's not actually perfect, but he's perfect for you... What if your messiest handwriting is perfect to me, which one of us would be right? Why would one of us be right? Idk what I'm trying to say... maybe let go a little, and just be for a while... Perfection wont complete you, learn to be kind to yourself, and most importantly, learn to be ok with being yourself, flaws and all, its what adds the most character.