Nobody said life was fair, but they promised it would be worth it... Cant remember where I read that. Thing is Anika, I know there is small stuff, tiny stuff, and thats where this whole beef with God comes in. I'm expected to be thankful for every tiny scrap of something good that gets flung at me, but they NEVER measure up in enormity of what I'm forced to survive AND NOT question. Idk if I can do that anymore, all I know is,I've chosen not to,and this puts my spirituality in limbo,coz I cant be defined