Thanks to all for your input and help - it means a great deal to me, you've no idea!! I put a call into my pdoc and I'm waiting to hear back. I'm sure the hospital isn't so bad or anything, I'm just scared anyway - fear of what I don't know... I know I'm manic, but I'm not bat-***** crazy (yet) either... I'm willing to go thanks mostly to you guys - will keep you posted