Oh boy , yes I know. Someone did tell me life was fair. I am not much help here because I gave up my belief in god years ago, even though this was my whole upbringing. Spirituality and religion are two different things, one can sometimes support the other, but spirituality can stand on its own. When we use religion to define our spiritual being, when or if it tumbles, we get lost and fall with it. You can have both, but you need room to find your own answers within. But Trippin, no matter your beliefs your spirituality is always within you, and needs not to be defined with rules or organization. It's there always.

I do believe we should question things, and not follow just cause.. Blind faith. And then to be a castout or condemned for questioning? Sounds like something isn't quite right with that idea. Even if after questioning you still arrive at god, that's fine. But not being allowed to question things removes free will, and to me.. logic.

You will find what you need, what your spirit needs, I do think you have it in you to know yourself pretty darn well.