XT,
I miss you so much. I don't know why it hurts so much, but it does. My rage defenses are down and out. Now there's nothing but pain. I want to talk to you at least, but I know you won't. I feel like something is wrong with me, I don't understand

I miss you and it hurts more than I could ever put into words.

I don't know if I will ever see you again?