(((Rose))),

What you are sharing right now is a "very tramatic" event, you know something bad can really happen. Not everyone will understand that either. People have a tendancy to "believe" these things only happen to "other people" and can be somewhat insensitive when they see what you are discribing happened in your apartment building.

I can totally understand how you are struggling right now as well, it takes time to pull back together after a "big trigger" like this.

I have been somewhat derailed myself because of the "scarey" situation my daughter is going through. My husband and I have been very worried about her boyfriend possibly getting "violent" because she really "is" leaving him this time. And he is an active "binge alcoholic" and he also owns guns as well. I have been "ill" over this so I totally understand how you are struggling. This is the only place I have been able to talk about "some" of what is going on in my life outside PC. And yes I do know about the "visitor of despair" but you have to allow yourself to "be strong" and you "are" strong Rose.

I have been taking it one day at a time myself and I have been doing everything I can to "self sooth" and rest and "slow down". Lots of quiet self talk and reminding myself to go easy.

This weekend will be ok Rose, don't let yourself get "overstressed" and "please" come and vent if you need to. Make sure you "don't let yourself feed into the negetive" and I know that can be a challenge with PTSD. I wish I lived closer so I could be with you in person.

I can see your thought process getting negetive, don't let yourself go there, make sure you think about how much you have been "gaining" and keep thinking about the glass half full instead of the thoughts that turn towards the half empty. What is "positive" right now Rose? You have a job, you have a roof over your head and you "have been gaining" slowly. You also did "handle" this situation as well, and you are going to keep moving "foward and gaining" as well.

Hey, I know you and I have some different POV's on things, but you are a fiesty fighter and you are "really strong" too. You are very "smart" and you "do" stand your ground. So make sure you tap onto that strong quality in yourself and remind yourself that you are no wimp. You "did do" all the right things the other night Rose.
Yeah, other people might "ignore" but not you, you are strong and "firm" so make sure you "remind yourself of that" because you "did well".

(((Big Bear Hugs for you Rose))))

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