I want to die. Still. I am stuck wherever I turn. I can't kill myself though, it would destroy my family. Its mainly the voices that make me feel this way. They torture me. They say God wants me to give up pretty much everything. And I don't want to do that. I could leave my church but that wouldn't be good. When I say everything I mean EVERYTHING. No music, driving, TV, reading about things that interest me, no school, only jobs the voices want me to do, etc. They even told me who to marry. They want me to be a trucker. I DO NOT WANT TO BE A TRUCKER. They tell my to drop out. They don't want me to go black friday shopping. (I'm guessing on that one, sorta)

They also want me to eat bad foods. They pressure me to. I have given into them on that point. I feel I'd be a healthier eater without them. Keep in mind I am very overweight and pre-diabetic.

I agree, some things I can be too into. But this is overkill. I may add more. Thanks!

Oh and they don't want me to drink energy drinks. Anyway I turn they are there saying NO!