You all have a lot of awesome things to say, but I still don't think I can change the way I think.. Everything has to be perfect, or I'm not satisfied. I've actually sat down and cried my eyes out before just because my handwriting is not pretty. I always think back to all the pretty girls in school who have amazing handwriting, and I get so jealous and disgusted with myself that I don't, that I've cried over it many times. It's just simple things like that, that get to me the most.. probably because I have to write things every day. It just makes me feel like I'm not enough, because I haven't conquered how to write neat. and it seems the harder I try, the worse my writing gets.. and that just makes things even worse.
I just can't get over this whole perfection thing.
I am a major perfectionist and I suck at it.