Ok, this is hard to describe. Recently, since I am only working part time and writing a book as well, I have decided that the non BP world just doesn't get my creative little world. I feel like everything is beautiful and spectacular and I am so aware right now, about everything. Music is the worst, since every song has a meaning and somehow relates to me and how I perceive things. My husband is a wonderful partner, has been with me for 20 years and I'm only 39, but I told him if I could, I would open my brain and show him the chaos in there every day. It's sooooo hard to explain. Maybe not to all of you, though. I see my therapist tomorrow and I will ask her about this sudden perception. No matter how difficult, the BP/depression I deal with gives me the most unique way to see everything around us. I think that is one thing regular folks can't ever have. For that, I am grateful. As we all know, the most interesting people in the world are those who are not normal.