I guess I just put "pretty girls" and neat handwriting together, because they just go together for me.. I feel like I can't be pretty if there are some things about me that aren't. I know alot of people who are not pretty and have amazing handwriting.. but they don't bother me as much as the pretty girls. It's like they have it all. they're pretty, have nice clothes, every boy wants them, ectt.. and they get nice, pretty handwriting too. It's just not fair to me. :/ && I know this all goes back to my self esteem and I know that I have EXTREMELY low self esteem, but I don't know how to fix it.. my boyfriend told me that everything I'm feeling like I'm not good enough, I'm supposed to look in the mirror and think 'I'm beautiful, stop being stupid" ..I just can't get it to work :/ sometimes I feel like I'm really pretty, and nothing can bring me down, then something as simple as my bad handwriting takes away all the good feelings and I just feel horrible again, in every way possible.
..That's another reason why I like being cyber schooled. People can only see the words I type. So they're just focusing on the words, and not my bad handwriting.