Hmm, well I am not a bad looking women, but my handwriting is horrible by some peoples standards, it's a kin to my grammar and spelling My 13 year old son's handwriting is way more pretty than mine. I can barely read my own writing.. but it's ok. It's mine, who is to judge it, and does their judgement matter? Is it even correct?

I agree, the self esteem, so looking in the mirror and just saying you are pretty isn't going to make you feel it or believe it. Telling your self to stop being stupid at the same time seems like a negative thing to do, it's basically saying you are being stupid, or you wouldn't need to stop.

Maybe we can try to help you come up with ideas for working on your self esteem. It is so important to be able to accept yourself as you are. Because it is who you are, and the judgement does not need to be part of this.

I spent so many years feeling like that, it just isn't worth it.