I stopped drinking caffeine on Friday, November 16.

The fantasies are calming down a little now. I still have the crush, maybe the caffeine augmented it?

I did some hard questioning again t his weekend about my condition.

I worked on another site that deals with love addiction. Love Addiction Recovery. They're a tough bunch, but their readings are good.

I am working on a concept of "stripping away" the essence of the man. Because it's not the human being I love, it's the ideas, the book, and his Russian name that I am hung up on.

I pray I am getting somewhere.

Carol