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i have lost that feeling of inner peace that I had after my last and most serious sui attempt on October 22nd. I was feeling so good, balanced, calm, never felt that good in my life.
And now it's gone.
And i'm scared.
i came so close this time. i'm scared of what will happen if i get to that point again.
i knew it wasn't going to last. it was just too good to be true.
i can't take going back to the way life was before. i can't handle feeling like that again.
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As she draws her final breath
Just beyond the door he'll find her
Taking her hand he softly says
For the first time you can open your eyes
And see the world without your sorrow
Where no one knows the pain you left behind
And all the peace you could never find
Is waiting there to hold and keep you
Welcome to the first day of your life
Just open up your eyes as I lay you down tonight
Safe on the other side
No more tears to cry
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