It hurts so much my financial problems occupy all my time adn thioughts my business is failing. I have reached out to my family, my church and Doctors but I can cope. My problem will take years to fix. I was never that strong of a person to start with I was held up by the false impression that i was a success knowing inside I am a failure. I talked to my wife about my dark thoughts and she said that is the only way she will stop loving me and hate me for the rest of her life. Last night it took 2/12 sleeping pills and a Zanix just to get through the night barely