I am ok ... my friends! And this dramatization too shall pass. I did have a special friend come and talk me here.. Which helped immensely.

You guys are great, even at my height of weird posts. I swear it's cause I watched waaay to much Anne Of Green Gables as a child ... what can I say..

" depths of despair, perfect graveyard of buried hopes..." My heart gets hurt easily, and I tend to panic.. that is the one thing I truly panic over.. my heart being injured. I swear that pain in the heart could literally kill me in some moments.

thank you for your caring... Secretum, Coco, Christina, Arthur ... thank you, and so kind of you to offer!! Suga.. you too !! I hate to make anyone worry. Things will work out, that is what life does right, or what we do with it.