It is your health; it's your life, and you're hanging on to it!
It sounds immensely crass to say that life is full of ups and downs, but it is (... both crass and full of U's & D's!), I don't think it makes any difference how old you are or, with emotional & psych issues, what social background one's from.
Impulsive thoughts of negative harmful actions: yep, these can be a frightening drag, a wake-up call, annoying, boring, a plaything - even a comfort.
I think you should indeed see a therapist, why the hell not! Does your college have a student counselling section? Make use of it!
This is about your health. This is your life. Take every possible step to make it not just bearable but good. Sometimes we need help to do this. We're lucky that there're professionals out there these days who can provide just that, and without all the nonsense stigma that used to be attached to psych ology/otherapy.
Best of ..... everything to you!
(& if your work sucks at the moment, so what? It won't always. Things'll change, and so will you).
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