I hope it's not deleted, George. For one thing, it's simple and honest ... for another thing I'd guess it reflects the feelings of a great many members here.
The holidays bring out the worse in me. I'm tired of the same old hurts going around, of the same people doing nothing when a tiny kindness would cost them nothing.
I get tired of putting one foot in front of another day after day, when to be honest it doesn't get me anywhere.
Life is wearisome at best most days.
You write good posts & I know help some of the new folks feel welcomed.
I'm sorry you're feeling lousy. Every one of us certainly deserves better, but that's not what it's about.
Maybe get a good night's sleep, eat a good breakfast, & find someone worse off than us we can do something for ...
Maybe adopt a dog and go running with your new best friend.
Roadie