I just find I don't see the point of getting up in the morning - I'm awake early but can't convince myself to get out of bed.

Today my mom called and asked me if I was thinking of hurting myself - I am, but didn't really answer her - I have thought about suicide, but don't think I'd actually do it, but I didn't tell her this. She started crying (even though I didn't answer) and she said she would kill herself if I ever did. Great response - guilt trip - her usual method. I love her, but she can be difficult, and has struggled with depression her whole life (the apple doesn't fall far from the tree). My grandpa committed suicide and my aunt tried unsuccessfully not that long ago - I don't think suicide is a good answer, but neither is living like this...
what to do?