Thank you for your understanding. I ended up getting a surprise interview the very next day for something that would be a whole new direction in my life, for the better hopefully. Well, anyway, I had a good laugh at myself for assuming I had that other interview, and then calling the woman with what sounded like a traffic report. I think I ticked her off for some reason ...........which when I thought about it more, made me kinda laugh a little bit more. I don't know why I thought it was funny. I guess the Seinfeld episode comes to mind where George's interview gets interrupted, and the boss doesn't clarify if George actually has the job or not. So, the boss goes on vacation, and George decides just to show up for work anyway, and see what happens. I was getting pretty desperate to find work, I guess. I've been selling my belonging's for money to pay the rent, and I don't even have that much stuff. Then, I think about my BF's soon to be ex-wife who recently asked him to skip making 2 child support payments so she could use his best buy credit card to buy a "cheap" $500 laptop for school. Oh, that just added fuel to my fire, because some people are so used to having someone to take care of them (or someone to use), and they live in this dream world where the word 'cheap' and $500 go together. Thankfully, he's finally starting to grow a backbone with her, and told her, "He** no!. Go ask your boyfriend for a computer." I'm sure other people are reaching the point where hysterical laughter is rising up in them because life just seems like one big joke. I actually just have to stop giggling for a sec and be very grateful for what I do have. I've been given second and third chances, but there is something wrong with me where I sabotage myself. I have to keep reminding myself that my life could be a thousand times worse. Many more people in this world are living in such true misery and hopelessness. I have no other choice but to be grateful for my life.