I give you credit for being honest and putting your feelings out there. I can relate to some parts of your post and sense you might be angry because I recognize these feelings myself. I envision myself going to a deserted area and just screaming all my frustrations out. Wonder myself why mean spirited people seem to get ahead and have grown to resent the materialistic life most people lead. Its seems society is getting more shallow.

Found out today of a family members death and it reminds me we should take a look at our lives. If any of us were to die, how do we want to be remembered? You don't have to answer these questions here but let me ask in reference to these quotes:

Why don't you like life?
What makes you tired?

What the missing piece that's frustrating you? Do you feel stuck in a mundane life?

Do you have regrets and if so what could you do in the future to make yourself feel content?

One thing I've learned is, its not excess or things that makes us content. Its better to live a simple life with fair comfort, than striving to accumulate stuff. What would it take to make you feel its a worthwhile life? One thing that does help me is exercise and eating very healthy. In this tough time of my life, I've learned to be a fighter and defiant. Out of pure stubbornness, I refuse to let what made me sad win. I'm not there yet because I'm still stuck but not giving up. I know you're a straight forward person and wanted to give you an honest reply. Think about what changes could be made to stir up some genuine passion for life again.