walking in quick sand. Lost my job due to crippling depression. Couldn't focus. Grouchy. Despair and apathy. More self loathing. Now it looks like Ive found other work that in another time I would find exciting. Its not something I can power through and there are so few employers who understand mental illness. Got put on wellbutrin. Seems to have an effect but I believe I need to up size it some.