Sorry! I am just coming across your post right now...I have been having a rough go of it the past couple of days...
will you call your doctor and T and let them know you are going through a very rough patch and that you are frightened? Perhaps your doctor will up your meds until you get to a better place again.
I don't know a lot about your background ... (again sorry!) Do you know what caused the "slide"? can you identify what happened right before you started to feel D again?
Please keep posting here. Let us know how you are doing. You are not alone
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Originally Posted by whenwillitend
i have lost that feeling of inner peace that I had after my last and most serious sui attempt on October 22nd. I was feeling so good, balanced, calm, never felt that good in my life.
And now it's gone.
And i'm scared.
i came so close this time. i'm scared of what will happen if i get to that point again.
i knew it wasn't going to last. it was just too good to be true.
i can't take going back to the way life was before. i can't handle feeling like that again.
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