George,

There would be no reason to delete this. No, you never do make threads, except current events, quite different.

I don't believe in that kind of higher power either, when I do look to Buddhism or Hinduism, I only look to the Buddhas or Deities for wisdom, or guidance because I do believe there is good stuff to be learned there. For me it is more about the philosophy and what they symbolize, to me it is just symbolism. That's all I feel I can do for it to be right with me.

I hear you tho, on all said. I will respect your statement of not looking for support or sympathy, sometimes we just need to put stuff out. The above is just simply sharing. Nothing more to it..

I think sometimes some people "see" more with out it being revealed. The only thing I will say is try not to take on regret for speaking what you feel, or opening the door a little. It needs no judgement.

You are in my thoughts, my friend.