Dear T,

I didn't promise not to post on PC at all, just not to start a thread about my session. I will stick to that and write a little here, as this thread is safe. I have to find a middle ground with PC, as with everything. I am going to try journaling more like you suggested, also.

I know you wanted to do SE but I felt like I had to discuss my feelings about last week. I know you didn't mean to make me feel ashamed or embarrassed but thanks for apologizing anyway. Thank you for saying that most people are bisexual. I never heard that before. You eased my mind somewhat that when I do feel those feelings, it's okay. Maybe I didn't feel them last week, but I wasn't comfortable. I agree. The touching stirred me up no matter what word we call it.

I think you understand a little better why I like therapy so much. When I don't feel the intensity, it's not as good but I still feel the intimacy. I wish I had that with ___, as you know. I will try what you suggest I say to him.

Thank you for your endless patience when I ask the same question over and over. I think I finally believe that you won't take holding your hand away from me!

You understand the swirling of stuff that goes in my head. You say SE is going to help with that. I believe you.

Love,
rainbow

P.S. I forgot to ask if it's still okay to love you. I'm sure you'll say "yes".