So, my friends.... what poor Charles basically told me, without using these words is... he has erectile dysfunction (ED). He did NOT use these words, but he talked about not wanting to disappoint me, he mentioned diabetes, which, I know, is notorious for giving people this complication, and said that after all it does not matter "whether he can or can't", he just wants to see me and reconnect. I think in plain English it means ED, no? Why else would he mention diabetes?

At first, I was shocked. Don't we live in an age of Viagra/Levitra/Cialis? Isn't it what half of all spam mail is about? Why would he even tell me if he can just take a pill and function, I wondered.

Then, I made a search and discovered that not everybody is helped by oral pills. I also read that in addition to taking pills, diabetic males require "stimulation". That did disappoint me, to be honest with you! I NEVER had to as much as touch him down there for a second - my mere presence was stimulating enough and he could pull off two sex acts in a row. But, I guess, I can be a good pal and provide "stimulation"... sad, sad, sad.

So I wanted to be nice and reassuring and wrote to him "do not worry about anything, just come over", and he responded that he is not worried, he is coming over, and followed up next day with "I am counting days and thinking of you all the time". So he is very excited, but I guess if you a poor diabetic, excitement is insufficient.

So I am looking for advice from people who use Viagra/Levitra/Cialis.

I guess it is the price that I pay for having older lovers. Oh well.

If you are reading this and are a male taking Zyprexa, get off it, instantly! Zyprexa can make you diabetic, and diabetes can make you impotent, and you do not want that.

I think with this turn of events my story and whether I am mentally ill becomes immaterial. Actually, bipolar is often compared to diabetes in that it can be managed but not cured.

Looking for advice!