thanks you guys, i tried a bunch of these things out today cause i was feeling angry and messed up and just wanted to shred myself (not a good impression on the night before HS starts). the drawing with red was okay but afterwards i felt worse so i ended up using the rubberband which helped calm me down and then i went to our park on my bike, rode around it a few times and then stayed on the swings until i calmed down enough to go home and know i wasn't going to hurt myself.