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Old Nov 20, 2012, 10:04 PM
Chortle Chortle is offline
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Originally Posted by anjelmarie View Post
Depression has ruined my life. I tried to reach out to family and friends and explain to them why i was withdrawing and the fact that i can't have conversation with anyone and i don't want to talk about my miserable life so that is why i don't call or answer the phone. Some people didn't even respond at all and a few just said that they were depressed too but they still have to go to work and take care of kids and blah blah blah. Basically making me feel like a wimp for letting it take me over. I had a breakdown basically and even now my therapist is trying to talk me into being hospitalized and i refuse. But losing everyone when you are in such emotional pain is just unbearable. I live with my bf but he is not supportive he doesn't want to talk about any problems and doesn't want to hear me talk about my feelings. I have my T. once a week when she is available and that is it. I feel for you and all i can say is just reach out to people who are going through the same thing like people on this site. You can try a group in your area for depressed people. I tried that and it didn't do much for me but it may for you. I wish you all the best. And yes i too hate holidays. I am having a hard time with it and without support it just makes it that much harder. Prayers to you and everyone going thru this.
I feel the exact same way, except it seems like a dead-end path for me.

I have no job, no education, friends, achievements, motivation, energy, the list goes on. I've lost all my friends in high school and college, except for one. I've distanced myself from my family, relatives, online friends, and everyone around me. I'm slowly slipping away from my best friend as well.

I don't have anyone to talk to and I can't afford a therapist or psychologist. I've been having suicidal thoughts lately, but I don't want to call a hotline because my parents will find out when they check their phone bill. They'll probably check my cell phone history as well.

It's torture, that's all I can say. :/
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