Are you under the care of a doctor? Do you take medication?
Do you have a therapist or someone that you can really talk to?
All those things are important, especially if there is a family history of depression....
Meanwhile, post here and post often! There are a lot of people who have been there, done that and have the t-shirt too

. We would all love to help if we can..
Take care and ask for help when you need it...