I finally got a chance to respond to my own post. Lol. Been having such hard time getting in here to catch up with all of you. I agree that meds side effects can make things worse as in like me, I just can't stand the weight gain and now I have horrible tinnitus in my left ear and my right ear has been deaf since birth. I think the meds I'm on are causing hearing loss. It's scaring me. I can't tolerate the side effects of most antidepressants. So far only Wellbutrin and Lamictal are the easiest combo on my system. I'm afraid to go off because I'm afraid ill lose control again. I'm finally in a good place. Work is awesome. I'm getting along with everyone without picking a continuous argument. The arguments were uncontrollable. I had random sex whenever I felt I wanted to. See--good and bad--where do I go with this. I called a holistic dr and plan on discussing a more natural way but how effective is holistic compared to chemical medicine??