I am being TOTALLY UNRATIONAL AND UNREASONABLE AND I HATE IT

I need people to tak me down and talk my own damn sense back into me. Seriously. I am annoying myself!!!

Ok so i have a big fight going on in my head, it pretty much boils down to good vs evil in there.
Anyway i also know that T has something going on with her family-- she sent me a quick email last week-- some kind of drama that was going to be taking up a lot of her attention for a bit.
Naturally, it came a day after we started having our own personal meltdown.
Anyway, t has had to cancel a couple of sessions because of whatever is going on withher -- again.

So i KNOW shes got personal stuff going on.

Yet here we are (not just me inside kids too)- going around nearly pouting (not really but thats what it nearly feels like) and feeling like T doesnt care and has just abandoned us and scared that she will never talk to us again and will never have time to have sessions again
(this is so frustrating because it happens several times a year)

T always comes back whenever she finally can. She just happens to be having a chaotic couple of years in her life and we happen to be along for the ride.

Anyway... I am sick of all the drama in her and in mine but what is annoying me especialy right now is that i am once again feeing irrationally abandoned and left behind when i know it isnt true (& yet in the background im wondering what if it is true this time? What if this time she really left us like old t did? Etc)

Aghh!!! Someone talk some sense back into us i am driving myself crazy!!!