Was "talked to" yesterday about my job performance, it was worse than I had thought... Not that I had made irreversible mistakes, but still, didn't make me look good in any light. I really want to keep my job (especially considering what the job market is currently) and I like my job. Seeing the doc today, please wish me luck - this has gone on for far too long. I'm surprised I'm not a blubbering mess - guess I'm a bit numb.

I'm willing to do my part: whatever it takes. I'm no longer afraid of the hospital, new meds, or what the next steps might be. Anything has to be better for me than this epic lack of sleeping. I agree with all the advice you guys have given me, I do think once the sleep is addressed, the rest will fall into a better rhythm. Thanks again to everyone - I appreciate you!