Miguelsmom, you suggested texting 'here when you need me' - and I really want to do that..im still not sure i should even make that move? I desperately, desperately want to but Im scared. I can't help but think that she thinks i don't care if i don't make any attempts.. just a week ago she left me a lovely voice message telling me that she thinks I'm fantastic, and that most other people would have left by now, and that she thought that said something about the kind of person I am.... I don't think its about me, its about how you feel about someone and how prepared you are to stand by them. And I am, I really am. Argghgh sorry to go on, Its just really killing me inside. Im trying so many distraction techniques its unreal!