Wow, a tough question. I'm not sure if any of us will be able to give you the answer or comfort you're needing at this time but do know that I and many others are here, waiting to be shoulder to lean on.

As for myself, I often find that I feel like the odd person out. I was married (now divorced) and have several children. Still, many times when I'm free, I have nothing to do and will end up in a bar, by myself (healthy, I'm not sure). It's depressing but I don't feel like I know how to relate to others, I always have this 'act' going on. I feel very alone but I just keep plugging away, telling myself, it's all in my head.

I don't have an answer but I can listen.....