I'm going to Thanksgiving at my mothers house. I really don't want to go, but I have a neice flying in from California whom I have not seen in four years that wants to see me, so I will.

My mother is abusive towards me. I'm the disapointment in the family. She never skips a chance to compare me to my sister who's 28 and never tried a drug or to my sister who's 16 and still a virgin. I have enough regrets as it is. She's constantly insulting me, telling me I'm unloved, a slut, annoying, worthless, stupid, a cotton shooter (this a very derogatory term where I live. Cotton is used to filter heroin. It refers to a desperate heroin addict that injects cotton residue to save their life.) and scum. She's also said things about my physical appearance, like "You look like a chemo patient" or "If you ate an entire house, you'd still be under weight".

I haven't gave her a reason to hate me so much. I always bite my tongue when she says these things. The only time I've ever stood up for myself was in 8th Grade when I got a C on my math assignment and she kicked me.

The only time she was proud of me was when I went to rehad about two years ago. Now I need to go back and it's not hard to tell. :'(

I don't know what to do or if I should even go. Any advice?