I don't know, Brian. I wouldn't fight the loneliness quite so hard if I had to do it all again. Sit with it a bit and see what it has to "say" to you, maybe do a little journaling and get to know yourself better instead of always trying to get "away."

No one else can "live" your life, they're all on the outside. Make "friends" with yourself and it gets a bit less lonely. But I don't know how old you are. I was in my mid- to late-30s before I found my husband.

One of the two bigger things I like to think I've learned (at least it always looks like it from 20:20 hindsight :-) is that things constantly change, there is no standing still like it sometimes seems things do, and I can't know what's going to happen tomorrow (or in 10 minutes for that matter).

Learn to wonder a bit, to expect to be surprised. If I'm bored I sometimes just arbitrarily decide something interesting is going to happen "today" and then wait and watch, like it's a present around the next corner. Study synchronicity -- it can help heal boredom sometimes.