thanks everyone .. it really does mean alot to see all of your support and advice. I will try and keep in mind some of the things that you mentioned, and i can only hope that things will get better. I am going to look into the counselling services and get more details .. i really do need someone to talk to. And i know that things are even more difficult because i am in a completly new environment.. but i actually met alot of cool people tonight, so hopefully things will be looking more up for me.