Chris - thank you. Your reply made me cry...in a good way. This is all so new to me. Wish I'd realized this might be an issue when I met with T last week.

Pbutton - Thanks. It took T 3 years to convince me to meet with the p-doc. I was terrified, but it has actually been a really good thing. I have not had good experiences with anti-depressants in the past, so the p-doc wanted to try really low doses of benzos. Klonopin relaxed me, but I was still constantly on edge and still very anxious. Ativan didn't do anything at the lowest dose, then at a slightly increased dose, it just made me super drowsy...to the point I could barely function. Xanax at a very low dose 3 times a day has been working really well for me so far. I'm just so not used to feeling not anxious, especially when it's about something I would historically would feel extreme anxiety about.