I'm a 20 year old male, student and I am in deep distress over what to do with my future. Growing up, friendship was non-existent for me as I was always the bullied kid. I had no one to go to for help. Now diagnosed manic depressive I now fear speaking/interacting socially, have tons of Anxiety(lack of social interaction?) left me with a very poor attention span and tremendous difficulty in concentration.I am also very depressed.
I need to find some friends and I do not know how. I know I should have some interests but I frankly have no idea what they are. I have troubles going to the grocery store and even getting out of bed. Going to class I clam up and shut up. I feel like i'm a chicken running with my head cut off. Deep depression used to be a part of me as a child and it is occurring again. It permeates my entire life because all day I think about disparaging negative thoughts about myself and it causes me to lack the motivation and will power. I keep on thinking of myself ending up in precarious situations and being inadequate.