the last part of this could have been written by myself. i understand perfectly what you are feeling.

we have to get up every day and just do our best. no matter what, we're doing what we can to exist. going to class is a triumph. a good grade is a triumph. helping a patient, for me, is good.

it sounds to me as if you probably need your meds tweaked. something is not working on your depression. it took me a very long time to get my drugs right and right now i'm thinking that i need a major change. sometimes psych meds poop out on us. it would be worth it to disucss it with your Pdoc. best of luck, love, pat