I really don't know what the heck is going on. I decided to try to see if I could handle eating something different today to do like a 'test run' for Thanksgiving tomorrow...(usually I have a very strict regimen of the same exact foods every day).

It is still "relatively" healthy (but not really): A 6" grilled chicken sandwich with pizza sauce and banana peppers...but they buttered the bun! Without me knowing! I got most of the top buttery part off, and then noticed at the end, after I ate it and thought it was safe, that they buttered the inside too!! AUGH, now I feel all greasy and disgusting, and I can't do anything about it here at work...it is a small office and they would notice immediately if I ran to the bathroom...

I just totally hate myself right now and I know that's irrational, but I can't fight these feelings. So I am stuck with wanting to do something I know I can't and all anxious and feeling nasty. Oh yeah...