yeah so i'm slippling. the truth is i felt it coming. i haven't been going out at all (other than going to work) for a while. i cut off my friends and family. just don't feel like talking to them. things like getting dressed and taking a shower are so hard now. took 2 overdoses in 2 weeks. i just can't even trust myself. and worst of all psychosis is much worse. i used to be able to tell what was real and what wasn't but now i can't. i hate the voices, i hate the visions. i can't even go out anymore because i keep feeling like someone is following me or someone will harm me. and worst of all, i don't know if it's real or not. i haven't told these to anyone, not the overdoses, visions or voices, or not even the "not feeling ok" part. i know i have to talk to my psych doc about this but it's so hard to express things nowadays. i don't even understand myself anymore when i talk. i can't organize my thoughts. i feel like i should be in hospital again but i don't want to.