Seeing that website I can see the difficulty. Because you hear that "odd beliefs" are the things that no one else believes in except you. So when you find a website like that, it is a big deal. Maybe do show it to your nurse. If she won't go there on her own, ask her to look at it with you. I think it is very important that she see it. If she doesn't want to, tell her that it's important. I think once she sees it that will help her help you somehow. Have you shown it to your parents? I think it's the same thing, if they see it, then they might be better able to help you.

As for the drone, that concerns me because, I am agreeing with farmgirl. If it wasn't on the camera, then it probably wasn't there. That's okay. It's nothing to be embarrassed about, especially not here. I see things that aren't there and I have to accept it. Just two night ago I saw a face jump up in my bedroom window. My window is 12 feet from the ground, way too high to jump. It wasn't necessarily a human face... just a face. It was there, then gone, like it jumped up to peek in. Scared the crap out of me, but reality checking said it was nothing there. When I looked out, nothing was there.