You are half right about that, I dont tend to show emotions very well. I was worried sick while she was in the hospital. I personally was in shock when she tried to commit suicide. I do have issues where I dont focus on her when I should. She is such a wonderful woman, full of life, her smile lightens the room! She also is so gifted singing, that is one thing I have missed from her, she stopped singing after leaving the choir. I do have a therapist and I see him next thur(week after turkey day). I spent a good while crying myself to sleep last night, I am right now working on my mental and physical health issues. I been taking a diabetes education course to get better control and will begin serious counseling about my problems.